ichat

I hate bots
boys*
being single is so hard
no its not
b quiet
I care so much about everyone
and I am nothing
I am passing through
I hate that feeling
you are saying filth to me
I just always fool myself
into thinking I am all these things
like smart and cute and nice and fun
all these good things
but college I am so different
people are used to people like me
there are a million smarter and cuter people
college doesnt define who you are
dont elt it
let*
why are you playing the comparison game
yer cooler
than that
trust me
psh
I am dating this boy
and he is like nerdy!
but he's fucking like tells me that he wants to get with other girls!
and
like
flirts with everyone
and makes me feel so scared
and so I cling to him
like
a fucking vagina that I would make fun of
but that's me!
FAK MY LOIFE!
I wanna
be
with
boys
DUDE
who
FUCKING
B A STRONG WOMAN
make me breakfast and kiss my fingers and push strings of hair out of my face
and
have long conversations with me
about
nonsense
and
death
and
violence
and we're really serious about it
but then start laughing
im very serious
because we're scared
and
happy
an
d
dying
and
we are scared and happy
that's what I want!
and you should write this down onto paper and not onto a ichat box
I write these things down
and re read them again and again and again
ok good
:)
Sorry
needed to talk to someone~
LOL
I'm done with self loathing now
dont self loathe in las vegas